Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Oh, the places you will go
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
The Skinny on being Fat
Today was a big eye opener at how I am not only letting myself down with weight loss but others as well. I have always struggled with my weight. Since I can remember my parents were always questioning how many pieces of bread I had when we were out to eat. I remember my high school friends looking cute in their short shorts and tiny tops, but I was hiding behind jeans and t-shirts.
15 years later, nothing much has changed in m life. I am still eating more than I should. I am not working out at all and I am more upset with my size than I have ever been before.
At the beginning of October, I signed up for a boot camp class hoping it would be the best way to kick my butt into gear with weight loss. I had told a bunch of people about my goal and they promised to check up on me to make sure I was progressing. What I didn't expect was to leave the first class, more upset with my self than when I started. Its hard for people to understand what it is like to be overweight unless you have been there before. Its not only an embarrassment but its disappointing... disappointment in yourself. I only made it to one boot camp class. It was hard for me to see myself struggling being surrounded by 14 barbie dolls. I was embarrassed for how I looked, angry that I was struggling, and frustrated that once again I was going to fail.
This morning I woke up disappointed that I had failed. I failed at going to work out this entire year with a year membership, I failed at thinking I could lose weight and get in shape, and I failed at one month of boot camp.
While reading Facebook today I found an article about a fit man who is going fat to get fit again. He wants to know what it is like to struggle as an obese person in losing weight.
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/why-a-personal-trainer-is-making-himself-obese-on-purpose-2583990
Two of my good friends kept their end of the deal. They checked in with me today on my progress and I was ashamed to admit I had was not successful. Although I want to lose the weight something inside of me is holding back on getting out and going to the gym and pushing through the embarrassment.
15 years later, nothing much has changed in m life. I am still eating more than I should. I am not working out at all and I am more upset with my size than I have ever been before.
At the beginning of October, I signed up for a boot camp class hoping it would be the best way to kick my butt into gear with weight loss. I had told a bunch of people about my goal and they promised to check up on me to make sure I was progressing. What I didn't expect was to leave the first class, more upset with my self than when I started. Its hard for people to understand what it is like to be overweight unless you have been there before. Its not only an embarrassment but its disappointing... disappointment in yourself. I only made it to one boot camp class. It was hard for me to see myself struggling being surrounded by 14 barbie dolls. I was embarrassed for how I looked, angry that I was struggling, and frustrated that once again I was going to fail.
This morning I woke up disappointed that I had failed. I failed at going to work out this entire year with a year membership, I failed at thinking I could lose weight and get in shape, and I failed at one month of boot camp.
While reading Facebook today I found an article about a fit man who is going fat to get fit again. He wants to know what it is like to struggle as an obese person in losing weight.
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/why-a-personal-trainer-is-making-himself-obese-on-purpose-2583990
Two of my good friends kept their end of the deal. They checked in with me today on my progress and I was ashamed to admit I had was not successful. Although I want to lose the weight something inside of me is holding back on getting out and going to the gym and pushing through the embarrassment.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Chicago, colds, and cocktails
I apologize for the week delay in posting. Two weeks ago, I got a horrible cold which left me struggling to make it through the work week. After that a trip to Chicago and a packed schedule at work kept me extremely busy. So, I am slightly behind on posting, even more behind on posting these photos.
My trip to Chicago...
Monday, October 3, 2011
Celebration
Last month was a very exciting month for me career wise, not only was I honored and given an award for the Most Outstanding Event Planner of the Year but I also was given a promotion at work.
Today, I left work with every intention to grab a glass of wine and dinner with friends to celebrate.
I also rewarded myself by signing up for a boot camp in the mornings to attempt my kick start to weight loss
Not looking forward to getting up early, but hopefully when the pounds start to shed I will be happy I signed up.
P.s. Aunt flo came this weekend and I cheated on my no chocolate. Big time fail. I will have to restart it tomorrow.
P.P.S I decided right after typing this that I might as well have a soda if I already cheated with the chocolate. Ok very strict tomorrow!!!
Today, I left work with every intention to grab a glass of wine and dinner with friends to celebrate.
I also rewarded myself by signing up for a boot camp in the mornings to attempt my kick start to weight loss
Not looking forward to getting up early, but hopefully when the pounds start to shed I will be happy I signed up.
P.s. Aunt flo came this weekend and I cheated on my no chocolate. Big time fail. I will have to restart it tomorrow.
P.P.S I decided right after typing this that I might as well have a soda if I already cheated with the chocolate. Ok very strict tomorrow!!!
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Month #4: My Happiness Project
My September Happiness Project didn't go as perfectly as planned. I started out strong until my two pair of flat shoes completely wore through and I was left shoe-less. I ended up stalking up on flats and spending a lot more than planned. After that shopping spree it was all down hill. Long work nights forced me to spend money on breakfasts and lunches since I was short on time.
I was upset with myself for failing at last month's happiness project, and in turn found myself not happy at all with my increasing debt. With that I must focus on a new month and something new to work on, I will just return to the debt issues again on another month.
Month #4
October
Equality amongst friends
I have noticed that as of recently treating others differently. I find myself treating two different people differently even if they have just done the same action. I want to take this month to try and treat everyone equally. To not hold grudges against people for things I can't control. As well as to limit gossiping and talking bad about others.
- Think before talking bad about others
- If I don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all
- Limit gossiping
- Think before I judge
- Smile more
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